In Memory of Mikayla

When we first knew
We were filled with joy
With so many thoughts
Will it be a girl or a boy

Plans started being made
Love started being grown
Knowing in 9 months
We'd have another of our own

I started a journal
Recording everything I could
Starting the memories
All that I would

Our lives were perfect
You were growing inside me
Feeling all your kicks
Oh, we couldnt wait to see

My belly was growing
Making you strong
In just a few months
It wouldnt be long

Then one horrible night
Our lives were crushed
In a matter of minutes
I was being rushed

You were taken from me
I didnt have a choice
You were born sleeping
Never to hear your voice

I awoke to someone speaking
My world just caved
"We did everything we could"
"But she could not be saved"

I was in shock
Not knowing what to do
But I held you in my arms
For as long as allowed to

My baby girl is gone
I am extremely sad
Mikayla, mommy loves you
I cherish the times we had

We all love you
Though we never got to meet
Your in our hearts forever
Sleep my baby girl, sleep.

On January 22, 2004 @ 6:30 pm I was in a car accident. I was 28 weeks pregnant. So I was taken by ambulance to the ER where my head was stitched up and the baby looked at on the ultrasound. Then I was taken up to observation in Labor and Delivery where my midwife kept an eye on me just to make sure everything was going to be ok. She looked at the baby on the ultrasound and the baby's heartbeat looked good as well as everything else. We had asked if she could tell if it was a boy or girl. IT WAS A GIRL!!! Mikayla Anne Well they hooked me up to monitor her heartbeat and my contractions. I had been having contractions since in the ER. The midwife had to come in a couple times to look at her on the ultrasound again cause she kept moving and they had to keep finding her heartbeat. They stopped my contractions and I was feeling really good. So the nurse came back in to check Mikayla's heartbeat and she was having trouble finding it but she never thought anything cause my baby girl was a mover and the midwife had to come in before to find her heartbeat. Well she came in and was looking at her heartbeat and things suddenly got bad. Her heart slowed tremendously and my midwife called for a c-section immediately. My heart dropped, I thought OMG what is wrong. Nurses came into prep me and off I went to the OR where in a matter of minutes I was asleep. I woke up to the doctor telling her daddy what happened. My placenta had abrupted making my baby girl lose blood, although it wasnt a bad abruption at all which is shocking. Her life was slipping away and they had to get her out quick. They worked on her for a half hour or more only to never revive her. My baby girl died on January 23, 2004.

She was 2 lbs 7 oz and 14 inches long
28 weeks gestation
Due April 14th, 2004

ACTUAL SIZE

Top: 7 week ultrasound pic, soo soo tiny. (baby is between 2 white plus signs
Bottom: 11 week ultrasound, wow look how much she grew in just 4 weeks!!!

19 week ultrasound Top: Her heart split screen with the heart waves Bottom left: You can see her spine and her head, she's getting bigger!! Bottom right: Her head

28 week ultrasound
These were taken about 3 or 4 hours before we lost her. Top: She's looking right at us. HELLO out there!!!! Bottom: Sucking her thumb.

Mikayla, mommy and daddy love you so much and will miss you for the rest of our lives. Just know that we will have you in our hearts forever. Mommy will never forget the time you spent in her belly and how happy you made her. We love you baby girl. OUR BEAUTIFUL LITTLE ANGEL!

Mommy at about 20 weeks

Mommy at about 24 weeks

Mommy at 27 weeks
last week in my belly

Big Brother Ethan Douglas

Those wonderful 7 months were the best and only times that me and you had together. I could feel you move from within my belly, every little kick and squirm. Every moment was cherished with you, my beautiful angel. Mommy will never forget you and you will always be a part of this family and in our hearts forever. We are sorry for the way your life ended and wish so much that we could change that night you were taken from us. We know baby girl that it was so unfair and mommy and daddy wish they had answers but we ourselves dont understand. Just know that we have loved you since the day you were conceived and will always love you. We miss you baby girl and will see you again someday.