In Loving Memory of Our Baby Butterfly
Jordan Helen Boston
7th Nov 2002 - 8th Nov 2002



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Jordan's Story

My name is Kylie and I am married to Craig and I am the mother of five beautiful children. Braydon 9, Kaleb 5, Montaya 1, our new baby Jack, and Jordan forever five hours old. We found out I was pregnant with Jordan three months after having Montaya, Craig was thrilled and I was shocked and I thought it would happen a little later than when it did. The idea of another baby so soon quickly grew on me while she grew inside me and I was soon looking forward to that yummy baby smell that fills your house when a newborn comes home. I was excited that they would be close in age and I knew they would be able to play, grow and learn things together.


The pregnancy went fine for the first six months and then the unbelievable happened. I'd been to the doctor on the 8th of October for my check up and everything was fine so I was due back in a month after having an ultrasound. I went for my ultrasound on October 24th and everything was fine. The technician then asked me if i'd had any bleeding and I told her I had spotted a few months earlier but that's all. She told me to expect it because I had Placenta Praevia and that's when the placenta sits below the baby in the uterus and bleeding was quiete common in these cases, she said my doctor would talk to me in detail when I saw him next.




Around 2am on the 31st I felt this warm feeling and knew something was wrong, I didn't worry too much at first as I remembered what I was told at my ultrasound. After waiting to see if it would settle it got worse so off to hospital we went. My Dr was called and he did an ultrasound and said my water had broken and I still hear his words "Oh dear, this dosn't look good". He explained all the possible out comes and left me laying there to try and comprehend what was happening. I was transferred to a larger hospital the next day as they had the equipment and facilities to care for premi babies. I was put on complete bed rest but I didn't mind. I was given steroids to help her lungs form plus many other shots to help her. After another u'sound and daily faetal monitoring and too many Dr's examinations to mention, I was told that the longer the baby was inside me the better it's chances would be. For the next few days I bled on and off and this didn't become a serious problem until exactly one week after I arrived there and around 8.30 pm I went into labour.


I was only 24.4 weeks pregnant and terrified of losing my baby if she was born now. I was rushed upstairs for an emergency caesarean and at 9.54pm 7th November 2002 our daughter Jordan Helen Annie Boston was born. She weighed 855g and was 32.5 cm long with brown hair and brown eyes. She was perfect.



I was taken to see her after waking up and it is all still a bit fuzzy to me from the anaesthetic and pain relief drugs. I remember seeing her in her humidicrib and the specialist saying she was doing really well. We were in my room a few hours later and I will never forget the numbness I felt when I saw the Dr's blue shoes under the curtain before he pulled it open and came in. He told us we had better come up to the N.I.C.U. and things were not going too good. Jordans oxygen levels dropped dangerously low and after different treatments we were told there was nothing more they could do for her. I didn't take in what he was saying and after he explained that keeping her on the respirator was only prolonging the inevitable. I remember looking at him and saying " If you take her off it will she die?" his answer was "yes". At that very moment reality came crashing down around me.



Craig, my mum and myself held her, took photos and told her how much we loved her before she was taken off the respirator and handed to me so we could take her back to my room. We were sitting in the room and I looked over at mum and said "I think she's gone" She grew wings and flew 2.50am 8th November 2002. I knew that instant she was gone as I felt a part of me die too and to this day and I presume forever I still have that incomplete feeling inside.


We kept her with us until late that night and this gave me time to know every thing about her like who's nose, hands, chin and eyes she had. Telling my other kids what happened was the hardest thing I've done and they held her and told her they would miss her and they loved her. I bathed her later when we were alone and I made sure she was dressed and wrapped up warmly and then the nurse took her from the room. I didn't want to let her go but I knew it would only get harder the longer I left it.


The Dr explained to me what had happened to Jordan and wondered if my membranes were leaking prior to what happened as her lungs had no moisture and instead of them being like little sponges they were like little bricks. No autopsy was done as she had been through enough and she deserved to leave this earth just as she entered ~Perfect~ I left hospital 1 1/2 days later holding a memory box and flowers carrying my empty heart. I would of given anything not to carry flowers or a box and carry my daughter instead.

~We miss you so much~



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I Want You Beside Me

Being apart from you isn't easy...
I find myself missing you so often, in so many ways...
But even though we can't be together right now,
gentle thoughts of you fill my days
And dreams of you fill my nights
No matter what I'm doing.
I know it would be so much nicer
If I could be sharing it with you...
I keep imagining things you'd say
If you were with me now.
Or the way you would laugh,
If something funny happened.
And next thing I know,
I'm daydreaming about all the things we'll do
When we're together again

Although the miles come between us now
I still feel so close to you and just keep hoping
The days will fly by because I want you beside me
To talk to
To hold
To love
Love, Daddy


~TO MUM~

You are always on my mind,
You are always in my heart,
You and me will never be apart,
right from the very start.
I know there is no second that,
I look to you and you to me,
As we are one together, forever.
Love always ANGEL





Jordan's Funeral

We spent the next few days on auto pilot and I kept busy organising the perfect farewell to a perfect little girl. My mum bought her clothes and as Jordan was so small they were off a doll and they fitted perfect.


The day before the funeral Craig and I took her clothes to the funeral home and after she was dressed we spent over two hours with her. We took lots of photos and held her close. We told her so many things in that short time and I will treasure those hours we spent alone with her. Craig placed the gold cross from his necklace in her hand and I gave her my anklet I wore at our wedding. Inside her coffin we lined it with my shawl from my wedding dress and put in a photo taken of all of us together, little figuirines, photos & poems off family members and a lovely head band with her name on it off nanny and pop. The morning of the funeral was when others could say goodbye and they added letters, toys and momentos for her.


We asked that her coffin be a bright pink colour to add some brightness to a grey day but sadly they could not get the paint in time. Jordan had a baby pink coffin with bright pink and white flowers on top of it.


The service was performed by a celebrant as we are not religious people and honestly at the time I could not of handled being told this had been gods choice and she was in a safe place. The service was fitting to Jordan and her time here on earth- "Short and sweet". Poems were read that we had written and we played 3 songs for Jordan and they were The Rose, You are so beautiful and There you'll be. After the service I gave all family members a balloon and together we let them free. Attached to my balloon was a poem and her details in case it was ever found. As we drove home from the service one balloon was floating beside me until I said "Fly free baby, I love you" then when I looked again it was gone.




Jordan's New Home

Jordan is at home with us and she takes pride of place in a special glass cupboard along with her clothes, photos and special momentos for all to see. In with her ashes we placed a guardian angel, roses off her nan and pop, the lovers knot from our wedding service and red heart confetti for every member of our family who's heart she took a piece of the day she died. I am currently making a garden for her
and hope to finish soon.


I would like to thank the people who helped support us when we lost Jordan and still continue to do so today. Whether it was a pot of dinner, cleaning the house, a shoulder to cry on or any thing we needed there was always some one there. Mum and Dad, Sam, Adam, Mick, Somer, Jamie, Lynda, Alaine, Nicole, Joanne, Nikki, Deb and Jim, Deb, Kristy, Paula and Cheryle my rose bud. From the bottom of my heart
I say to you all" I LOVE YOU"


A special thank you to Maria for giving her time, skills and heart to make
this beautiful memorial for Jordan. I love and thank you always.


And thank you's also to my dear friends, Sheri and Rosemary for your help with framing some of Angel Jordan's photos for her web pages.



"We love you Baby Butterfly"



Kylie,
I'm so very sorry for your tremendous losses
I honor the memory of your husband Craig
and your sweet little angel Jordan in heaven
My heart truly breaks for you
With Love
Ann, Laurasmom





Dear Kylie

My Heart is holding yours.
MAY GOD BLESS YOU
Sue-Anne~~~Lee'sMom


Lee ~ 4ever My Angel



My Angel Son Michael




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at Heavens Angels and hosted by Teddy Bear Treasures ~




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In Loving Memory of Jordan Helen Boston
on 11 April, 2003
Last updated: 13 May, 2008
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