I was told as a child, that if I questioned anything that I was taught in church It was really the devil asking the question.
I remember as a small child, about 9 years of age, coming home from church one evening. After a sermon about hellfire and damnation, I found myself sitting on the floor of the car in tears, sobbing quietly so not to have my parents hear. I was petrified that I would sin and some terrible fatal accident would befall me before I might have the opportunity to repent to Jesus, and that as a result I would be damned to eternity in hell.
I felt that no matter what good deeds I performed, that one sin would damn me eternally.
I just couldnt understand. I thought God must hate me. No matter how much I was taught that God was love, this factor of eternal damnation remained - what if I sinned?
I wonder, if like me, you cannot deny the existence of a Creator, but you just can't accept what you have been taught about this Creator from Christianity.
Your soul craves Your Creator - Where do you turn? What can you do? Is there an Alternative?
Well, I can share my search I suppose, my journey to where I am now.
My mother and 2 of my brothers converted to Judaism about 15 years ago, whilst I was still a member of a pentecostal church. I was having questions, but I did not wish to convert with my mother, as I saw it as difficult and hard work. I was also very confused, and again fears of the anti-christ and damnation plagued my mind. I thought that any doubts were just the devil trying to confuse me. I figured that confusion was just the nature of my christian beliefs. No one would answer any questions, they would just say 'have faith in Jesus'.
I left christianity at about age 16, but I didnt leave God. I told God that I wanted Him to show me the truth, and then I threw caution to the wind, and never attended church again.
After years in the world, and stooping way too low in the material gravity, I finally came across my answer.
I have found the bottom rung of the ladder I know is the right ladder to climb. It is out there.
If you are questioning, please go on this search, God will never fail an honest seeking heart.
Do your own search, but if you are curious about mine, check out these links - remember no one is forcing you!
I wish you all the Blessings God can bestow upon you!