>>>24.01.03
>>>why am i awake so early
i'm awake because i'm a morning person. it's been my habit lately to sleep right after dinner and finish off everything [ read: cram ] in the morning. i personally don't know how i'm going to survive in law school with this kind of lifestyle.
by the way, mng. leiya found out the other day that she's carrying a baby girl. nice. she's thinking it's going to turn out to be a Polo and Old Navy fanatic just like her mom. i'm thinking it's going to turn out into another bianca plus the american accent without the sex bomb dancers obsession.
>>>23.01.03
>>>currently listening to: some song by richard ashcroft
as if i haven't had enough of 'the ring' movies and the idea of recording videos, i spent half the day burning 'the ring' 0-2 for my friends. i had to test them and have a glimpse of those japanese actors and actresses in the film over and over. right now, i can't even type in the computer without checking every now and then if anyone's behind me.
while we were watching the ring 2 yesterday, i overheard bianca telling patti that we're watching 'lord of the ring', but it's a japanese version. i guess sadako can pass for a gandalf.. they have the same long, frazzled hair..
>>>15.01.03
>>>currently listening to: some song by richard ashcroft
why is it that a lot of people i know watches smallville and no one from my circle of friends even watches dark angel?
just a thought.
>>>14.01.03
>>>currently listening to: 'king of pain' by the police
random thoughts.
today's mng.leiya and patrick's first wedding anniversary. yes, it's been over a year since i officially became an only child. hehe.
today turned out surprisingly okay. i recited in class, i got pretty good grades in the tests/papers that were returned, i didn't humiliate myself in front of whoever, i was able to talk to people i haven't talked to for a long time again. it's pleasantly surprising because i've been having these happy days constantly lately. and it's good, since i'm trying to make the most out of my last days in the ateneo. it's just so nice hanging out with my blockmates. [ no, we don't get sick of each other even if we see each other everyday ] the whole campus has a friendly atmosphere; it's like you know everyone else in school. and it's something i'm going to miss when i move on to whichever path i will take in the near future.
in the am, we had an interview session with someone from opus dei for our polsci report. despite the fact that we were more than an hour late because we couldn't find the place, the person there was kind enough to still accomodate us. and we learned a lot.
i went to ateneo law school to get the application form. i just fell in love with the place. i know, it's very intimidating and formal, but i like it nonetheless. and i desperately want to study there. and it's not just because it's right next to the power plant. when i entered the building, the guard by the door asked where i was going, and i explained that i was going to get a law school application form. he initially asked me to leave an id and he was about to give me a visitor's pass until i flashed him my ateneo id [ complete with the blue id strap with the name ATENEO in bold white letters ]. seeing the id, he let me through without a gate pass. i walked inside confidently with a sense of belongingness. but as i stepped inside the elevator, i felt totally alien from the students and the teachers all in their semi-formal outfits on their way to their respective classes. they were probably eyeing me as another ateneo law school wannabe, trying to see if i'm the type who would actually pass the entrance exam alive. good thing there was another aspirant by the cashier, some guy from u.p.. he was asking me about the tuition fee, to which i have no idea. i was relieved to know that there was another person in there who was as clueless as i am, someone who was also probably trying to get used to the idea of moving to different floors in school riding an elevator. good luck to us.
- some things to be thankful about:
- kfc hotshots
- good grades [ knowing that my industriousness and luck finally paid off ]
- good friends
- guts
- that half the work is done with our polsci group report
- the amusement i get while watching our dogs play with each other
this is peewee.
this is peewee getting on bubbles' nerves.
>>>13.01.03
just for the record, neil and i haven't fought since the year started. now that's something to smile about and be thankful for.
today, i was faced with a very important insight: i realized that my life could be interesting.
as always, i drove the crv to school, listening to the cd i burned with updated songs a week ago. we went to east ave. for a kythe visitation with weki and janice.. 'ate at mcdo. i attended my two classes - media and theo in the afternoon. met up with my polsci groupmates. had a 'prayer meeting' [ it's a requirement for theo ]. 'went to the gym after. drove home with the same cd playing on my radio. i met up with my friends again, nothing embarrassing happened, there were no indications of bad luck as expected, things went on smoothly.
i guess my life is getting too comfortable these past few days that i don't want things to change. and change will be something hard to stop especially with the fact that i'll be graduating from college in two months. i'll finally be leaving the katipunan area, which has served as my second home for almost 17 years.
what would become of me 5 months from now, i wonder.
me and my possible lives.
there are limitless possibilities to how i would be living my life 5 months from now. to put things simply, here are some of my options:
>>>currently: surfing the net for the APA manual
>>>currently listening to: 'like a stone' by audioslave
>>>12.01.03, 9:49 pm
there are actually a hundred other more important things i should be doing right now, but i choose to procrastinate and type an entry in my journal.
it takes some getting used to typing my journal on a website. i have always written all my thoughts and deepest sentiments in wordpad, changed the font to wingdings so nobody reads it 'accidentally', and stored the files in the 'lyf' folder under the 'keep out' folder of my computer. i don't really know why i go through all the trouble of keeping everything i write from anyone when i'm the only one in the house who uses the pc anyway. i think all this paranoia can be traced back to my childhood - when i was eleven to thirteen, i kept on writing stories and journal entries. since i didn't have a room then [which i felt strongly against at the time], my sisters could easily steal my notebooks and read them. and they did. and i didn't like the thought of having anyone read and criticize and, worse, laugh at what i write all the time. so, i always saw to it that whatever i wrote was safely hidden somewhere. i think i carried the habit with me until now. dang. i can't believe i'm still not over that. i should leave my childhood issues where they belong.
and i'm babbling again. it's hard to write when you know there's a possibility that someone might read what you have written. i'll get used to this. someday, somehow.
>>>currently liking: audioslave's 'like a stone'
>>>currently listening to: 'sonnet' by the verve
>>>9.01.03
it's already the 9th of january, 2003.
as i always say, time flies.
in less than two months, i'll finally be graduating from ateneo. i'll finally be leaving the comforts of katipunan which has served as my second home for more than 16 years and i'll be putting myself up to the challenges of law school. if i pass the entrance exams.
in three months, i'll be turning 21. a lot of young people my age have probably actualized themselves at this point in time already. i'm sure a lot of them have real achievements to actually be proud of. some may probably be working and building their independence. some may have full bank accounts and working up to their potentials. at this point in my life, i'm still trying to get to know myself better and get rid of my neuroses. and i still have the brain of an eleven year old.
and in 6 months, i'll be the aunt of two more possible niece/nephew/s.
>>>04.01.03
>>>currently liking: frou frou
happy new year!
at december 31, 2002, i still didn't feel like it was the end of the year. usually, we would go out to buy some last minute food or eat someplace. that time, however, i spent the day at home, alone, staring at my pc and downloading mp3's at kazaa. the rain was enough to drown my spirits, and the whole atmosphere just made me want to snuggle beneath my 10 year old mickey mouse comforter.
everything turned around for the better after dinner. our relatives came to celebrate new year with us. it has been a long time since we last celebrated new year together. for the past years, i just celebrated new year with my immediate family.
at 12 am january 1, 2003, our household turns into a noontime variety show - everyone gets into the parlor games and desperately tries to beat one another all in the name of greed [yes, we have parlor games every new year's eve], everyone wants to be seen in the camera, almost everyone is dancing and moving around wihout caring about poise. to cap it all off, the ketchup song is blaring in the background.
