my chains, however, can only be seen by me.

many. female. male. nineteen familiar close ones. others hiding in the shadows. the original is female. she is small and quiet and still quite young. this is all we have ever known. it is not frightening. it is a means of . it has always been about . Chrisitan. heaven is my home, and i will be there. i will finally be whole and with my Father. my real Father. recovering anorexic. the picture above represents the chains anorexia will bind you in. it is not fun. don't go there. i have a map on my skin. i would like to erase it. i would like to erase a lot of things. the past cannot be erased, nor can it be forgotten. dreamer. i always will be. idealist. realism is too depressing. i don't need help with that.

i am a writer. writing is a tool for me to open up my soul and discover my dreams. i have a story to tell. one day it will be read. it is not a pretty story, but it is mine. and it is one that needs to be told. i study yoga and would like to become a teacher someday. yoga is how i connect with myself and accept myself in the present moment. self-acceptance is what we should all strive for. i used to study to be a professional musician. i cannot play the oboe anymore because of the painful memories that come. not only can dreams die, but they can be killed for you. i have cried out of love. i would do it again, for love is always worth it. in love you will find freedom. i consider myself an artist. no, i am not a great one. but i do not believe that you have to be great to be an artist. anyone can be an artist. talent is not required. letting your soul pour forth onto paper, or through an instrument or your own voice is what is required. fear is what holds people back. fear holds us back from a lot of things. i grew up in fear. i am trying to break free of this. it is not easy, but if i am to do more than just exist on this earth, then that is what i must do. and i do want to do more than just exist.

i want to thrive.

My Non-Life With an Eating Disorder
        I do not encourage anyone, under any circumstances, to start traveling down the road of Eating Disorders. Be it anorexia, bulimia, or compulsive overeating, they are all hell. Don't let anyone fool you.

Multiplicity
        Section containing diagnostic criteria for DID, personal experiences, and poetry.

429
        If you are curious as to what this number means, then check out this page. It will try to combat ignorance and will also contain some links to other helpful sites.

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