I thank God I was made a grandpa. It's a special gift. I do have a special close relationship to our Baby Faith. After standing by while Jen went through child birth, then all the trips to Omaha, back and forth to the hospital, then that final day as a bystander, my heart was broken.
At the funeral, when it came time for the "Ave Maria", I could not contain myself any more. I broke down, sobbing and crying. People were patting me on the back to comfort me (they should be patting Jennifer's back I thought). I almost went to the floor. I still have visions of Baby Faith now turning 3yrs. old in August. How cute she would be in her frilly dress, shining shoes, like on an Easter day. Her smiling face and giggling, playing with grandpa.
I think of her everyday, secretly and silently. She lives on in my heart. She is with me always.
Can you remember when you saw such small children on the playground? or have you ever been in the kindergarten class room and seen all the children playing and coloring? That wonderful feeling, seeing the sweet innocent children and the road of life that lies ahead for them. That feeling, you need to protect them in their innocence. I see Baby Faith like that, playing with your angel and all the little angels.
When I go, she will take my hand, as we pass through the tunnel of light, and she will say " come with me grandpa, while we wait for mommy, daddy, and grandma."
I throw you a kiss and come here now and let papa brush your beautiful angel wing feathers, and she giggles, she is so ticklish - grandpa's just a dreamer.
LOTS OF LOVE AND [[[[[HUGS]]]]] GOD BLESS
GRANDPA BEAR
There's a special angel in in Heaven
that is a part of me.
It is not where I waned her
But where God wanted her to be.
She was here but just a moment
Like a nighttime shooting star.
And although she is in Heaven
She isn't very far.
She touched the hearts of many
Like only an angel can do.
I would've held her every minute
If the end I only knew.
So, I send this special message
To Heaven up above:
Please take care of my angel
And send her all my love.
XOXO,
Mama
"Merry Christmas Baby Faith"
"Precious Angel"
I love you and miss you so much. I know our Christmas can't compare
with yours up there, but life isn't fair. I should be putting pretty
ribbons in your beautiful black hair. I should be dressing you in
ruffles and lace and looking into your beautiful face.
You're an angel above, who showers us with love.
It hurts so much to be apart!
I'll carry you with love in my heart.
Forever.............
With Love from your Grandma
Christmas 1997 Your lst Christmas
FAITH ELIZABETH MOORE-HILGENKAMP
August 15, 1997 - August 20, 1997
F is for Faith-Everlasting Love
A is for Angel-Sent to us from above
I is for Infant-So sweet and innocent
T is for Tiny Girl- Full of strength and love
H is for Heaven-Your home now above
Put them all together, they spell FAITH
Our baby girl so dearly loved
From your Grandma 1998
Heaven and Earth will meet today
One tiny angel will lead the way.
Family and friends will gather near
To honor this angel that we hold dear.
Faith would be one year old today,
She'd smile and laugh, and coo and play.
Her hair with curls so soft and sweet,
her sparkling eyes, Her tiny feet....
Now she glides on wings of white,
And visits us in angel flight.
She lets us know she's always near,
To keep us safe while we are here.
Baby girl we love you so
And miss you more than you'll ever know.
But we'll be together again someday
And once again, you'll lead the way.
Happy Birthday Little Princess!!!
Love, Auntie
There once was an Angel upon us.
An Angel whose name was, Faith.....
She graced us with her beautiful presence,
And brought joy to the lives of all those who saw her.
Though, not everyone got to meet this
shining star, we still loved and cherished her
even though it was just the thought of her
that made us smile.
Even still, it was enough to fill our hearts
with gratitude in knowing she was a part of us.
And though she didn't stay with us very long,
we will always carry a part of her in our hearts.
So rest now, our little Angel, Faith.
And as you watch over us, please know
how lucky we feel that we were graced
with your wonderful presence.
And please remember you will always be a part
of our family.
You touched our hearts and brought us
closer together, our little Angel, our Faith.
Rest peacefully now. Your mission is done.
Dedicated to Faith by her cousin, Kristina
"I Remember..."
Her precious, tiny cries at birth
The meeting of our eyes for the first time
(...violet eyes, and kitten like cries....)'
There is always somethings I remember.
All those tubes and wires covering her body.
The hollow sound of an artificial heartbeat
(...whispering respirators, and pacemakers...)
There is always something I remember.
Cardiologists in white coats delivering the news
the sound of my sobs (There is nothing more we can do"
..more pain than I ever knew..)
There's always something I remember.
Holding my daughter and talking gently to her
Seeing those eyes for the last time. (Rocking,
kissing, singing and holding..violet eyes slowly closing...)
There"s always something I remember.
A tiny silk lined box,
A gorgeous porcelain doll inside it
(...a coffin so terribly small, my daughter who gave her all...)
There's always something I remember.
By Jennifer Moore
For My Beautiful Girl, Faith.
XOXO Mama
Written 7 months after Faith's death
