Living In Your Letters

I'm always assuming the worst.  but you're going on none the less.  and there's nothing to cushion your heart-led fall.  letters from further away keep pulling me close to home.  and they're something to cushion my calisize.  and i know that you hope for longer goodbyes.  embracing fall for forever and falling in your eyes.  in your eyes.  your eyes.  pouring over photographs.  i'm living in your letters.  and breathe deeply from this envelope.  it smells like you and i can't be without that scent.  its filling me with all you mean to me, to me.  continually failing these trials, but you can stand by me none the less.  and you won't let me sink through i'm begging you, i'm begging you.  phone calls from further away and messages on my machine.  but i don't ever tell you this distance seems terrible.  there's no need to test my heart with useless space.  these roads go on forever and so do you and i.  there will always be a place for you in my heart.  so i'll hit the pavement.  it's gotta be better than waiting.  and pushing you far away cause i'm scared.  so i'll take my chances and head on my way up there.  cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten.


The Sharp Hint of New Tears

On the way home this car hears my confession.  I think tonight I'll take the long way.  In this weather, the wind outside is biting.  It's left me feeling tired and exposed.  You've been asking me to bleed.  It seems these kind of questions become too easy to you now.  And your lack of shame comes naturally.  I should not be surprised.  I should have seen it sooner.  Expect me to apologize for things you've done wrong.  While you're inciting others.  You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone.  Cause you're not going anywhere.  And this damn air, it's fighting my defroster.  My sighs, they ring victorious and fog this tinted glass.  And it's clouded, and so is my head.  The hint of these new tears are sharp.  I try to choke them back.  But its useless, I'm  useless against them.  They're beating me with ease.  On the way home this car hears my confession.  I think tonight I'll take the long way.  Expect me to apologize for things you've done wrong.  While you're inciting others.  You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone.  Cause you're not going anywhere.  On the way home this car hears my confession.  I think tonight I'll take the long way.

Turpentine Chaser

The paint has been tasting of lead.  and the chips will fall as they may.  but its not just my finish that's feeling.  and its not alone fleeing these walls.  well sooner or later, this code, is gonna break.  so our hands will be warm again.  but all i want is not to need you now.  and soon or later, this code, its gonna break.  and our words will be heard again.  but all i want are vows of silence now.  this turpentine chaser's got kick.  and the rag that its socked in is rich.  but the fumes ain't the base of my cleaning.  and as soon as i'm done i am gone.  well sooner or later, this code is gonna break.  so our hands will be warm again.  but all i want is not to need you now.  and sooner or later, this code is gonna break.  and our words will be heard again.  but all i want are vows of silence now.  and the frightening facts, we've been facing our backs to for so long now.  obeying for eyes to bear witness to lies and indifference.  now we're sitting alone.  the things we did clouded our silence.  the new coats of paint will not reacquaint broken hearts to broken homes.  broken homes.  broken homes.


Ender Will Save Us All

It's just like you to contest you wear it like a label on your breast don't you see what this takes of me? A certain callousness complies with your charm & in your pride a hopeful look draped in despise. I want to give you whatever you need. What is it you need? Is it what I need? I want to give you whatever you need. What is is you need? Is it within me? It's hard to explain how I am getting by on so little from you. It's hard to believe that I would let myself get so wrapped in you. There's got to be something that would be worthwhile for me to give to you. We need a connection but you seem to push me far away from you. The harder I push the further I fall. Well you don't mind me being headstrong. But you don't want to sing along. Maybe it's right but I can always be wrong Try not to be wrong.