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Sunday 23rd July 2006

Phoo, another  eight or nine months... finally got another
ISP sorted out, been hanging on in there for the last year
paying a fortune on pay per minute... never again (I hope) :)

Anywayz... been pretty ill so haven`t done that much
considering how far into the year it is, rather than whinge
on though (something I seem to be getting good at, hehe) the
following is my meagre attemp at getting something done.

1:  Done a LOT of work on Tomato Antics Remix... this
      is to be my swan song probably for the standard speed
      SAM Coupe, as soon as I heard about Quazar`s
      Mayhem Accelerator Card I decided to do two games -
      Firstly something pushing the 6 MHz SAM as far as I              was able with SAM Basic to see what could be done, and
      then something for the new 20MHz SAM.

      Tomato Antics Remix is the result, whilst some
       may say that there`s not much of a game in there
       at the moment I was mainly working at getting the
       engine as close to 30-40 fps as possible before adding
       in the goodies.

At  the moment the first level is as follows :-

      > approx 35-40 fps at times, even though there`s a
          few sprites and various background things going

         
on.  The frame rate does vary depending what`s
         happening onscreen but it`s had four months of
         hand optimization on the code and ended up using
         something like a script for some of the enemies.
         The game itself is a glorified early 80`s LCD type
         game but with smooooth movement of the objects,
         characters, it`s pretty much also an update of the
         same theme as my Jack and the Beanstalk game
         from BitaByte D. Mag issue 3, i.e. a catching game.

  
 
         Still many months of work to be done on it and
          it`s quite awkquard to work on as the code is split
          into tiny segments so as to try to get lots of things
          done with little CPU overhead... has built in code
          profiler which measures segments of code or Procs
          into thousands of a second.

Second level will comprise of bouncing down a 45 degree
hill avoiding stuff... or something similar.  

--------------------------------

Game two is called
`Jimf `n Oobs Go Whack` and is to
be for the SAM 20Mhz... spent a while doing some graphics
which aren`t my strong point but pretty pleased with what
I have so far... there`s about 90 frames of animation for
Jimf so far with an expected 200 frames for the final game.

Main Character - Jimf    -   a blue alien       
Sidekick             -  Oobs   -   Jimf`s  backwards cousin`
                                                 and helper.
Main Enemies    -  Jizz and Tizz  -  Intergalactic Bounty
                                                              Hunters after Jimf
Love Interest       -  Jizzy                -  Princess and also
                                                              Jizz`s Sister... Ooh                                                                           Complicated *_+
Sheep                   -   What the games about... Jimf and Oobs
                                   are afterall the worlds most famous
                                   sheep rustlers.

The games set in the 1600`s and will take about a year to
finish... still need to write a proper Map generator and a
couple of other lil` progs utils before I can start work on this
properly...   At the moment it`s only running at about
3 - 4 fps on a real Coupe but final game speed is hopefully
gonna be about 16 fps on a Mayhem card or in emulator.  The main thing keeping it a such a low fps t the moment is the decision to use screen flipping and drawing about two thirds
of the entire screen every loop before even the sprites are
placed.

There`s a VERY big chance that there will be an enhanced
Amiga 1200 version of the game using smooth scrolling
rather than flick screen. This could even make it out
before the SAM version.

Other Stuff
----------------

Profiler... mentioned above... pretty pleased with this,
works well even though it`s only 3 or 4 lines of code.

Update to Flash.  just a quick hack that gives better
animation features for grabbing and animating sprites
within Flash itself.  accessed by the Flash file menu
it opens to a seperate screen where animations can
be tested.

Also can lacca band an area then scroll contents left
by just one pixel... to solve problems with graphics that
aren`t on an even X coord... helps with grabbing `sprites`
for a BASIC game.

I was using the Mouse version of Flash for this, but has
to go back to the normal version as crash`s were happening.

E.a.s.e
Nothing really :( Still crashes when I try to do any more
work, same shit as back in late 2004... have though quite
seriously about writing a simple interpretor and language
and then rewriting it in that since it`s the only way of
writing a 200-300 K prog on SAM without MasterBasic
taking a huge dump.

Started work on changing bits of what is there into Mode 4
so that at least it could look pretty decent and have easier game prossibilities.

Ooh, and one big bit of news... after five and a half years
finally managed to beat the drink, no longer am I a filthy
rotten cider head ( though I retain the right to still be
known as `Cider Man Cider Man` and to keep my Cider Man
theme song, lol *_+

Sorry to all those online and off that have had to listen to my inane rabbling  and rambling  these past 2 or 3 years :)

Calvin - No longer a pisshead - Choose Life - *_+

Saturday 5th November 2005
                                      

Six months since last update,  I used to have night time
dialup from Freeserve, then Wanadoo bought them out
and I thought Cool (even though they weren`t a British
company and I prefer to buy British).. then everything
went normal, then Wanadoo came up with the marvelous
idea of `improving` their service and offering dial-up
users abetter service... cheaper... cool.... 24 hour hour
access to net, WAY effing Cool !!! Woo Hoo... oops, wet pants
... they assured us in the letter, `far from being worried, this
will be a better service`... C O O L .. what they forget to mention was that people like me without a bank account
or Credit Card were in fact being told something different..

we were in fact being told... bend over ... we`re gonna f*ck
you up the a*se.... we don`t want your business, despite
the fact you pay apremium, you pay many times more
rhan our Broardband customers, we don`t care.. bend over Bitch !

So fuck them.... I`ve spent a bloody fortune on pay per minute and I`m pissed...

INCLUDED an avi of a demo vector version of Tomato Antics
It`s 1 and a hald minutes long and is just a demo
the proper game looks much better - soon will put up demos of Flash Pro v1.0 and hopefully E.a.s.e... depending f course on the way things go....

Hi to all the decent folks *_+   Calvin
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I hope to do over the next few months
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Tuesday 10th May 2005
                                        
Added a picture of Amiga Action 89
cover, just below this text ---------------------------------
with Egor in Toyland on the front cover, I`d love to
have this on the PC, so if anyone has it to preserve then
PLEASE PLEASE Plu-ease get in touch... The game itself
wasn`t up to much despite running at 50/60 frames a second
, it was just something I knocked up for MR AMOS and the
Reality package...  the original Egor`s Quest was much better

I have a copy for the actual Amiga if
anyone can transfer it over for me... :) I`ll also provide
source code for the whole Reality package, including
the 8 way scrolling skeleton disk I got ripped off on, and
anything I did, namely the  art package, an updated and
MUCH improved version of Mega Mac Map, and all the
copies of the Intuition interface, ASL file requester,
Palette requester and all the others. there`s also some
other games namely Ultra Space Invaders, a four player
simultaneous platform shooter and some code for a pseudo
3D scrolling platform game engine, like Clockwork Knight
on the Sega Saturn, something I don`t think was ever done
commercially for the Amiga,,,

Also added a couple more lame poems... I know I have links
ready at the left for each section, but this progs messing
me around with directorys, and lost some stuff :(, so for now
this page will have to remain a mess...

Cal *_+


Saturday 7th May 2005
                                        
Firstly, added a demo of a little
test project/game called for now "Splodge", this is very
rough, and isn`t a game, on top of that is the horrible words
I annoy people with (haha) "It has to be run overclocked"
at about 4 times SAM speed.

All you can do for now, is rotate a little craft, and shoot one
bullet, the bullet doesn`t go in the right direction yet, and
the space craft are just dummy ones for now... plus only
10 percent of the code for movement of your own craft has
been done... I`ll try and put in another hour or two this week.

----____----____----____----____----____----____ :-

Also, in the same vein as above (i.e. , trying to write a
complete game in a couple of hours) is a project I started
just two hours ago, and it`s nearly done... the project in
question being a mini version of Space Invaders, since
there`s nothing complicated about this game, it seemed
an ideal choice to see if it could be done in SAM Basic
and run at a decent speed... hence the decision to make it a
mini version, so that the sprites would be quicker to
`Put` to the screen.

It seems it can be done, and infact has worked out so far
much better than I`d anticipated, gonna be using a few
tricks to get it done, but about 80 percent of the game
was done from scratch in under 1 and a half hours, so
it should be finished tommorow (I`ve a mates wedding in
a few hours :) ), or by Monday.

It`s called "MiniVaders" and a demo of that is also up here
now... Please not that the invaders don`t dissappear yet
when hit, the code to work out which one is hit hasn`t
been done, it`ll be multiple bullets, and hopefully have
different levels, or dive bombing aliens or summit.

Oh, and second day off the drink, it hurts less today than
yesterday, lol *_+

Cal :)

15th April 200
5
                          Started converting a few notebook sketches
to see if I could brighten  this  site  up  a lil` bit, or a least
make it more my own, there`s the `Come Gitsome Life`
one above, and a few down by the poems for now :)

Done some work on Tomato Antics, then lost work when I
closed the emulator after 4 hours or so and had forgot to save
my new version, haha, still, it was nothing major, or that I won`t be able to remember, just simple graphical tweaks for background stuff...  Oh, and fell down the stairs the other
night after two bottles of cider and four cans, Lol, *_+, so
much for quitting drinking, haha...  Bad Cal !!!

6th April 200
5
                          Just added a demo of Tomato Antics, which
                           is a game I started in 1992, speeded it up
                           a bit, added in some extra things, and
                            disabled level 2 in this demo, you can now
                         press the fire button on level 1 to jump higher
                        and also make wider jumps by bouncing off
                        the sides of the screen , it really isn`t nearly
                        as crap as it was... hehe, :)

Please be aware that you should always (IMHO) run the
SimCoupe emulator video in 5/4 wide ratio if you want
games to look as they really would, and also, if you have a
Ge-Force or similar, turn stretch on, and resize window
to between 1 *  and 2 * size with video set to Video instead
of software emulated etc and games will look MUCH nicer :)

26th March 2005


Wahey ! ... 
Birthday in 2 days... I`ll be 31 years old, and a
                   
decrepid old fart at that, Wey Aye, just thought
              
    I better get some folders and stuff ready on the                               site cos I been taking some pictures of old games                             and stuff, the pics will be up soon, but Im unsure                             whether or not I can host my own games and disk                           magazines on this site as in about 1993 I sold the                              distribution right to someone... Now the copyright                         was always mine, in fact it`s slightly easier than                               than that due to the fact that all software and Disk                           Mags were always Public Domain, and I never                                 minded people swapping and copying BitaByte                               Disk Mag even when in fact I was still making and                           selling it myself... It needs some more thought, I`ve                         emailed the guy three times these past 8 months, and                       no reply, so If I get a bit of bottle they`ll probably                         be up here in the next week or two... :)

Now, on the plus, I`ve finally got a bit of work done on the
main E.a.s.e. program, I still haven`t got all the requesters
and gadgets done, as I have to hand copy code from Amiga,
and as I think I`ve said I`ve been far too busy running around like a tit, but on the side I`ve started some new code
for thumbnail pics of text documents, with some embedded control codes for different things, when merged into Ease
this should be nice, also done work on format for appointments... for the past 8 months I`ve been VERY (and
sadly) dissapointed at the situation with the whole project...

Virtually no work has been accomplished, due to the bug in
memory paging, and this all happened at a time when I had
great hopes... `Cos of this I have been very stressed with the
thought of touching the main prog, for fear that corruption of the code would once again creep in, but with no job, or
much to do it seems that this shitty program and Project is
all I have been deemed to do... so hopefully I can stay sober
long enough to put some serious hours and concentration
into it once more...

Calvin :)

     
Old Blog -> ---  -> --- -> --- -> --- -> --- ->


                                      Settling
In

6th January
2005

Phoo !
...    2 weeks wasted, countless braincells blasted into
                   oblivion...  ... damn.... a Good Christmas
had, :)
         
          Pissed Coke heads wanting to Kick my door in,
                  
   loadsa aggro... sheesh, that mates for ya !!!!

            
    THE USUAL CHRIMBO  then !!!        lol

             
   Head busy with too much to process, limited
                   braincells trying to do work on projects but
                    at least things are becoming more organised...
                      Mind somewhat returning :)

                  Thinking what to do on this website,  looks like
                    it`s gonna be host to some fairly comprehensive
                     Trialing action,together with Trevs Page, Im talkin`
                       Elastomania bike action, Im talking Bike Vids
                         Im talking foot trials `n stunts on Call of Duty
                          I don`t know, however could a person become so
            
          Excited about animated Gifs... shame on me  *_+

         Finally got my old Amiga working, for source code, and
         SAM manuals have now been scanned by Steve Parry -
         Thomas so unfortunately I no longer have any excuse not
          to get stuck into coding... damn ... damn damn damn    
          DAMN.
..

Cal
:)

                                 Just setting
this up

19th Decem
ber 2004

Right then... been avoiding doing anything on this site
for a few months now cos the online webpage creator
sometimes doesnt save the latest page, so I lose hours of work... so right then... F***  it... I`ll do it anyways, and if loses my updates then F*** it... it`s my fault for not learning html, php, java, human interaction.. oops..

Same goes for E.a.s.e. ...  Projects been more or less dead
in actual code terms for about four months, cos of a bug in MasterDos and memory paging... it doesn`t crash, and there aint nothing wrong with it... how dare you suggest such a thing... anyway, crack is that it`s back on as a Project... F*** it... if I lose work then so shit... better that than shelve something.... gonna split it into sections as I believe C programme
rs do...

21st Octob
er  2004

Just been able to find Amiga, from which I need some old
code, no point reinventing the whee
l  *_+

Calvin

16th Septem
ber 2004

Just gonna be a place for now where I can put some stuff  details for the

E.a.s.e. Operating System Im working on... Beta release  version picture`s and AV
I`s...

Open Source k
icks ass
They lied you know, it wasn`t a full game, but a four level demo I was gonna try and sell as Shareware, I think we all can still
remember this time in the Amiga`s history as the last ever commercial games were being released and it seemed it was gonna
die, I got outa the scene, and only later realised that Amiga Format and some other stuff had lasted another few years..

Long live the Amiga *_+
Below is a few hours work on the new thumbs feature to be added to the desktop
when displayed it is half the size of below, so looks better, a thumb will hopefully
be able to be `STUCK` onto the desktop (up to five), and as well as showing the `Thumb document`, it will also hold the 42 lines of text (64 chars per line) that That thumb contains, if you drop the Menu bar then you be able to choose to drift the cursor over a thumb, and it`ll display the text, I want this for notes and reminders, I wish Windows had such an option... I`m thinking, if ever scripting Does get added to E.a.s.e then it`d be nice to include some code in a thumb, that the O.S. would detect :)
Beta Release Version .1 release date :
Early 2005 :)
The  Main  E.a.s.e  page  link will be  up and ready very soon and will   have  details as well as what I`d like Ease to be like   when   finished,  also  some  details   about    problems   during coding this thing :)
More about E.A.S.E Link
Cheers toTommy (Sadako)
for the excellent Logo... :)
Old Pictures of Ease Running, looks better now...
1990 - 2007 - 18 Years of shite Geordie Software, lol
Enhanced
Automated
Software
Environment

E.a.s.e
Ease Info:

Just a little OS and Desktop to run on top of Windows, Linux, Mac etc etc..

Will have own built in apps, plus it`s open source so you can change anything, write your own apps etc etc...

OH, and here`s the double whammy, it`s written in Basic !!

-------------->
Coming ahem Eventually Thanks to :-
Source Code and Tutorials,

Developers Log:

AMOS Stuff

Games and Mapping Techniques

The State of the Industry

Free Magazine, and downloads

The meaning of Life
Ooops that last ones a lie :)


Also coming in the next year  to run under E.a.s.e:-

Art Package
NotePad, and NotePrint versions 3 and EZee
Map Editor, also with Spectrum and Amiga features
New games, and applications
Arrex type control, for scripting etc

Keep waiting... Cheers :)
Music from :-

John Lennon, Red Hot Chilli Peppers ,AC/DC, Iron Maiden, Alanis Morrisette, Radiohead, REM, Pearl Jam, Stone Temple Pilots, Wu Tang Clan, Beatles, Bob Marley, 2Pac, Four Seasons,      128K Spectrum +2 Computay... Yerz, Gasman and the rest of `AY Riders`

Comedy from :-

Lenny Henry -
www.lennyhenry.com
Billy Connelly - Johnny Vegas,
Folks at WoS, Peter Kay
Nutty mates *_+

Food

Pizza, Chips, Tuna, Cuppasoup, Vegetarian Stuff, Monster Munch

Drink

Tea, Coffee, LCL, Fosters, Cider (eeuurrgghh), Guinness, Protein Drinks

Smoking

Turner baccy... with Zig-Zags
The Chronic

Reading

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WWW.Mega-tokyo.com

Mark Twain, Thomas De Quincey,
Stephen Hawkings, Nostradamus,
---------------------------------------------
Thanks to all those who`ve looked after me these past few years when I`ve been ill, to those (You know who you`z are :) ) who`ve protected me when I`ve been in danger and to those who`ve tried to sort my head when I`ve being going Mad ... Respect !!!      Cal
Play Elastomania

It`ll make you buzz

Thee best motorbike game ever on any platform... Trials style all the way...
P.I.S

Permanently
Insane
Squad.

1998 - 2005 *_+

Shout outs ti` Kirk, Gregg, Trev, Gary, Shakey, Dexter, Daren, `n everyone from
Da`           Biggin
[History]
Computers  logo nicked from someones website featuring a Retro Computers Calendar... will include link when I find it again :)
I like and some links.... soon anyway
Spectrum 48K
                  SAM Coupe
                 Amiga 1200
Small Collection of Poetry

Please don`t laugh, haha, I been writing this shite for years :)
It`s gotton me through some fu**ed up times, and been
enjoyable as well... Never underestimate the shite that a stoner  will write about in a poem, lol
  Jay Day    

Jimma got beadup the day
Johnny shoddup the day
Noone knows why Jimma godda beatin`
But Johnny smiles -
as-ee falls from-eez feet`n
Jens got ah bottle `n
Shi flips off the cap`,
Jimma`s feelin` down
So-ee snorts ah rap`n
Everythings crap ...
So...

Jimma flips-eez lid, `n screams at the walls
Johnny`s justa kid,
yet he crawls down the halls
Got pain in-eez balls
`n
Jen, poor old Jen.
Sheez the one everyone calls...

But...

When it comes down to it...
Jimma doesn`t givvah fuck
about gettin` ah kickin` -
Public Perception
Ego Trippers
`n all that shite `n
Johnny`s in a daze
where days are days `n
He knows-eez real sick
but it`s just a phase `n
if-ee puts up a fight
it`ll be aw-right `n
Jens pulled it round
Shiz down the club on the mike (mic)...


The threee J`s... ha
What the like...

(c)2000 Calvin Allett


It`s OK

`Tek a drare... Tek a drare !!`  he says
`Just you follow my eventful ways
Positive energy influx... Livin` life straight sucks
Cos it does... Just need that chemical fuzz...`

So ah tek a puff o` the magical stuff
Pass it back when ah`ve had enough
My head flops back and mah eyes water
Whatever ah lack ah try as ah oughta
Not ti` caugh and make a fuss
Show that I am not a wuss...

Ah`m in control... When ahm stoned ah`m on a roll
Goes out mah head that ah`m on the dole
Just helps- iz ti` cope
So ah can hide that rope
Ah like mah dope...

Negative vibes are out the window
reactive tribes are making Sin go
Ju`s pass the bottle `n
Ah`ll mek the gin go
Yeah, you know what ah mean
It sure beats bingo...

You smoke the tack
You ken the lingo
Keep sorted pal
It`ll make the sting-go.... ...


(c)1998 Calvin R Allett
People I Like

Such beautiful Souls I often meet
Who fly amongst the clouds
and with a smile they greet...

Those unencombered by sobering age
Who put happiness
before such things as rage
Tho those of whom I speak
You, may take a seat...

Such youthful energy
and colourful vibrance
Those who can Be
and so take a stance...

Those who are joyful
Cheer those who are woeful
And with their meer presence
Fill a life which is so dull...

These... are the people I like
It is people such as these
Who are the people I like.... ...


(c) 1999 Calvin Allett
Shakey
Christmas Poem
Countdown to Christmas  

Santaclaus and all his elves
are busy stocking Christmas shelves
And as his wife, She brews the tea
There`s Santa-Claus, he smiles with glee...

See raindeers flying overhead
And wishful children tucked in bed
Christmas lists, up the chimney breast
For we all know that Santa`s best...

"Everything must be perfect !!!"
  the old man says
As each present is checked
then sent on it`s ways...

And there`s hurrying... and scurrying
and pressure on top
Still the days are so joyful
In the Santa-Claus Shop...

He gives old Rudolph, a polish
on his shiny red nose
Takes a nip of warm Rum
Puts on extra close... (clothes)

And with a map in his pocket
Imagined smiles in his head
There off like a rocket
Far far overhead...

A dark starry night, and a pale half moon
A sleigh full of presents... Santa comes soon...
  There`s stockings, clock stoppings
    For his work must get done
The last present is delivered
And he`s off `fore the sun...

The Children... excitedly
down the stairs
  here they come,
Thank you
Dear Santa
  Now Christmas has come... ....

(c)1999 Calvin Allett


Broken Wings

As I looked at her, only her eyes were visible...
dark like an animals, distant with pain,
but so intense, what pretense of joy had she known
and lost I knew not...

This girl had no glass slipper...
Only a crippled grasp on hope
  that this senseless rain would end...

She needed an Angel to rescue her,
That much was obvious from the twinkle in
the gaze she passed my way... but what could i say,
For I knew that she saw my own darkened eyes,
my own broken wings which were not quite
earned but burned from flying too close to the sun...

So... with heavy heart I passed her own gaze back,
...Smiled... and walked on by.... ....

Cal`
2003
But your Honour,


I wasn`t resisting arrest, simply

resisting a Kickin` !!!
Weep for the Night

`For Love, would I die... yet once to cherish
Your kiss, or a touch - but hopes they perish
Here in my room... do I persist... resist...
                             or exist in this longing
Enlist `articles` of joy to stop wrists yeah
                                             from thronging...

Could a poisen... taken to my veins
but mask my loss for thee
Re-utterance`s of death
doth press upon my breast
No rest but stress for I
Distressed... a tear from eye doth sliide
For death is life
  If love divides...

Weep for the night, my love...
Weep for my saddened Soul -
That fly`s, not like dove -
but flits `n flirts with things above...

Weep for the loss of my smile
Weep for my springless leap -
  and deep am I
   As only lonely hearts they creep...

Tight... tought... tied teetering on the edge
Flight is no option... for hope is dead
Was a dream for love a pledge
for right has rites... if right is said...
  Weep for the night -
   For I am dead.... ....

Cal` 2003
True Love

Hush those thoughts that tell thee, I will not do
And dim those lie`s which other`s speak
For Love has room and heart does yell
That those who find are those who seek...

Is Nature`s hand not tended well
As Souls they melt with passions heat
And fools they say and stil they tell
That true love is rare, and ne`re will two lovers meet...

That thou doth own my heart, `tis plain to see
For all around friends eye`s retell
That I have loved and cherished thee
Thou `art my heaven, this life my hell...

So listen, search and think of me
For what life do`th heart, this Love sets free.... ....

Cal` 2004
Remember

A Female...
Ah sexy wiggle `n ah fiddle aboot
   Just ah bit gropin`... That`s all it was
  Just kids learnin` the rope `n
    The teachers behind us -
      Ah tell yi` - Shi` was !!! ...

       Ha Ha -

      Oul Mrs offit, with-ah wig in a jar
        Sayin` - "Stop fuckin` aboot,
                      `n yi` might go far !"...
  Wild innocent days...
Early evening sun, on the red tiles o` the hooses
A big offit sign, like on the wizard o Oz
  Sayin - "Life"... "Choose this"
   Ahm free
    Thez nee cunt can abuse - iz
Ah remember... D`yee remember...
Ah remember... ....


Ah remember runnin` upstairs in the dark,
cos ah couldn`t reach the light switch - Age Six
Ah remember jumpin` on the milk float,
and flyin` doon the street, and mah mate shootin`
  "This is the beach this !! "
   Proper naturally high,
    wi` the sky sayin` Reach This...
     WOW...

Ah`m gan` ti` see that mate now,
`n ah`ll walk in `n say `Hou !! `...
   `n he`ll say - "Hou`s for indians...
                       Hays for horses"
               `n al` smile `n say -
                  "Here`s a broomshank...
                     Force This... !!! "
                Ha Ha...
       Ah think wa` ganin` mad -
         `nd wi` sure needa car...

So.. anyway...

Ah walk in...
Grin on mah face... Right hand - Bottle o` gin`...
  yon dude on the sofa, wi` ah pipe made o` tin...
A can o` soup cooks
Mah mate his smile droops
  Ain`t no jobs, to go to today
   We`re bored... Jus` slobs...
    Perhaps you say... ....

So a young boy chokes... frowns
on discontent
  It seems he drowns
   Can`t pay his rent
    Gonna move... Get a hip hop tent...
Dance his blue`s away
Dance bare foot, no shoe`s today
Drop the blue`s - 2 mils you say
Cheers pal - Good buzz today..
We open the voddy, and we`re on `are` way...

`nd we talk shite...
Endless `truth nonsence` about the millenium
  And how this is the year, we`re we gonna win...
See me on the street
`nd ah`m the boy wi` the grin -
   Gettin` Focused
    Hocused Pocused
     Gonna make the most of this,
    Al` be the one screamin` "Life"
     `Ah can cope wi` this`
       `Nee botha... Piece ah piss this`
        `This is MY life... Please don`t diss` This`
         `Thez ah buzz happenin`...
           `You don`t wanna miss this
             This is life This is life
              This is hip this
                Chill Pal...
            Take a sip-ah this...

So take an objective view of life
Take a mental picture, of the world around you
  Sieve out all the shite
  Then let it astound you, let the joy surround you
     There`s nothin` can hound you...
Anythin` that happens
Your big enough ti take it
Anythin` you can`t do
Bet for sure you can fake it
Yes you KNOW
  You can make it - Take it
   Take it to the edge
  If you feel that your fallin`
   Just jump back off the ledge...
     Your comin` up now
      Ah see yi` step back from the ledge... ....

(c) 2000 Calvin Allett
TopDog... Fantastic Game *_+
all these are under 50 K, wanted to have it playing in background, might work with Internet Explorer?
Download John Lennons "And So this is Chrismas" .Midi
Download Batman game .Midi
Download Friday Weed Intro
Links to articles / Pictures / Games

Articles:-  ---:
www.pagebypagebooks.com/mark_Twain/
    (and this)  Tom_Sawyer_Detective/
I never knew there was more than 2 books
with good old Tom and Huck (and Jim) in

Pictures:-  ---:

                       where?    where?



Games:-    ---:

              WWW.Teagames.com               
     Try the TopDog one, Biplanes clone
                for the 21st Century

WallPapers:- -:

                      where`s the paste?



Threads:-  ----:
                     Never seen it !  
Currently / Recently :-                                                       Last Changed 6th March 2005
Listening to:-  ---: ...   NightOwls, Metro FM...
                                                                             Best of AC/DC, loadds of cheese and radio shite
                                   John lennon
                                      Audio book of `Around the World in 80 days`

Watching:-     ---: Hackers II.. good film, but no Angelina :(
                                                                             Unfortunately not Doctor Who as the BBC in
                            their infinite wisdom decided to only repeat it on BBC 3, so anyone who`s remotely
                            skint and gets dragged out on Saturdays to Party will miss the entire thing, bloody
                            marvelous... oops, rant over
                            Neighbours... Still, Lol

Playing:-        ---: Call of Duty on LAN, Atari ST games  ....     Virtual Pool Hall on LAN
                               Bosconian 87` on Spectrum            Elastomania as
ALWAYS, draughts
                             Old 79-83 vector games on Mame-some of them ran at 1200*800 back then Wow !!!!!
Reading:-      ---: Old issue of Advanced Computer Entertainment from 80`s                                                                            
Tom Sawyer - All four books last week, Sweet :) * a million
                              Retro Gamer 14, Jennings books - still deciding which one to read

                             
Cosmic Consciousness - Richard Maurice Bucke M.D.
Mood:-          ---:  Choose cars, compact disc players, electrical tin openers, Spectrums, CHOOSE Life

Eating:-         ---: Flake, Crisps,

Drinking:-       -:  too much alcohol, too much coffee ... too much shite

Fancying:-        -: Going to sleep, hahaHahaHa..ahem... :)

Hi to all da Good peeps :)

All the great people at World of Spectrum
All the great MAME guys
All the great peeps at MyhiddenTalent

Local Peeps: Mark, Corndog, Johnny,
                     Ben, Mick, all the fine
                     females, and of course :0-
 
Dexter -  Best Wishes Mate :)

Darren -   Where the fuck are you ?

  Kirk   -   Keep ya` heed up marra  *_+

Tre
vski :-   Oh no, those sticky icky
                   Buns again,haha !!!!

  Gr
egg  -   D`yi wanna buy a caravan !!

  Shake
y  :- Toke Toke.. Take it to head
                  Smoke `dat shit *_+

   Gary :- 
  Porn Star extroardinaire !!!

  Cal :)                                  Peace
*_+
Never play leapfrog with a unicorn..
"Fuck It...
  Whatever it is
  It don`t matter
  Honest
  Just Live... Be Free..."
  Live !
Before  you  Die..
"Anger IS Strength
   Knowledge IS Power
    Disability IS Motivation

     Whatever don`t kill you
      Makes you stronger"
`Tis but a myth, this dream of dreams
  it seems...
"Take from life, what is pure
and for living, what is sufficient"
:- Quote from some film
"Man does not belong to a Nation...
   nor Religion... Nor money `n Capitilism
    Man belongs to Conscience"
:- Cal `1999
Email:
Calvin_allett@yahoo.co.uk
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