3rd of the 22nd ~ Delta Company ~

25th Division Combat Infantry

"Deeds not Words"

I was in-country June 1970 - March 1971
December 6, 2006

 

Leaving ~ A Poem
This page was created by Arnold "Bud" Lane in Febuary 2000
Reflections of Others
Lots of great Pictures 67 - 71
from Jerry Giannopoulos and friends
Submit your relections (WordPerfect or MS Word)
Memories and Songs
Memorial Day Message 2003
.Jim Criddle Story
3/22 Web Page Members located
A Small Picture of Death.
The Battle for Fire Support Base Burt

I very humbly present this page to you. I want to tell you that making this site and corresponding with my brave comrades
has helped me heal many wounds in my own mind. I hope it might be good for each person who visits here.

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 Names of men in my pictures

I am finally getting around to printing all of my old negatives.  I will have them all in a digital format and if you would like a copy, I will send it to you.  e-mail me for a picture

I updated this page 12/6/2006

 Hyde-Lane , Unknown / Lane 2 , Papasan / Lane, Ross, Greg Mazowski, Tim ????,, Hooch Maid, VanHorn, Meek,
Meek - Hyde, Group 1, Group 2, Group 3, Jeep Group, Lane

 

Doug Everett, David Sandemeyer 1 , 2 , Herb Artola , Bill Lampere 1 , 2, Sandoval"Chico" Sanchez, Rawls, Bickel, Grube, Tillman, Bill Alsop, Jamie Vilalobos 1, 2, Bill Hyde 1, 2 -, Paul Lorentz, Hi and Tom, Mike Wangler 1 , 2 , 3,
Scott Rehling 1, 2 , Nate Sakowitz 1 , Jack Zimmer 1, Brunner, R.C. Clark & who, Ray Oliver 1 2, Curtis 1, Jerry Mead 1 , 2&?, Klinkhammer 1 , 2, Alan Kouba 1 , Harvey 1, Warfield 1 , Shimkis 1 , 2, Sam Margolis - , Greg Mazowski , Criddle, Turner 1 , 2, VanHorn 1, Meek 1 , 2, Hi and Tom , Lane 1 , 2 , 5, Patrick Botbyl, 1st Sergeant, Charles Burwell,

Group Pictures NCO Club - Camp Fire - Bunker #1 - 2 on a bunker - Bunker #2 - 3 drinking beer - 4 in rubber trees - 4 reading letter - Bar-B-Q - Huey #1 - Huey #2 - Rest Stop #1 - Rest Stop #2 - Point Squad - Platoon -
Can you put names to these faces Robbie ??? , Unknown 4 , Unknown 6 , Unknown 7 , Unknown 2a,
Unknown 4a, Unknown / Lane

I would like a copy of any pictures you have of me.

If you would like your picture on this page. Send it to me in the JPEG format if you can.

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If you would like to share some of your reflections Click Here and submit your thoughts or memories or other things that you think others would gain some insight into life in the bush.

Jim Criddle - Herb Artola - Larry Scheier remembering Bob Hope show

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Submitted by Houston Tuel 

... Jim Criddle, now living somewhere in Missouri, from whence he originaly hailed. Jim was one hell of a point man for 1st platoon, D/3/22. On December 19, 1970, Jim heard the sound of metal on metal coming from some nearby banana trees and quickly yelled out AMBUSH! as he hit the deck. All but one of us was able to follow Jim to the ground fast enough to avoid the green tracers that immediately thereafter filled the air around us. I really don't know how many lives Jim saved that day, but I count mine as one.

As I recall, Lyle Metzler "stole" Jim away not long after that and added him to the Company's point squad. I have Jim's last known address and phone number somewhere at home if anyone wants it.

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I can put your reflections here.   

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The guy on the far right in the Zimmer-Oliver photo is me, Herb Artola, then 2nd Platoon Leader. I believe the guy on the left in #8 is a very close-cropped Greg Mazowski, CO's RTO. Saw Greg this summer for the first time since 71. He is doing OK and living in New Jersey. Also, Paul "Lantz" is actually Paul Lorentz, the other Company RTO. Tracked down Paul this summer. He is in Minnesota. by Herb Artola  

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...... I was on the freeway, listening to an "oldies" station. The song was by Creedence Clearwater Revival, "Have You Ever Seen The Rain". This song took on new meaning for me after reading the story by Art Mandler (my plt) in our newsletter a few years ago. And most everyone who was in Vietnam saw "The Rain" or Monsoons as they are called there. But the fact that you saw "The Rain" means you also saw the other things of Vietnam. So all of you have "Seen The Rain" even if you missed the Monsoon season. So, basically, it made me think of you.........I was heading home after getting the tickets and the song "Monday Monday" by The Mamas and Papas was on. This song also took on new meaning for me after getting to view the tape that HB Scott Johnson(2nd plt C3/22 67-68) put together about his tour. He left Ft Lewis WA on a troop ship like us originals did, but in 67. The picture on his tape is of the large (HA!) crowd seeing that ship off, about 8-10 people. It was a Monday, thus that music is in the background.

Again, I was thinking of you......One other song that I like that always makes me think of you is by The Supremes, "Someday We'll Be Together". And I remember how we left Vietnam with addresses of friends, and we said," I'll call you when I get home", or "I'll come see you when I get home". But we really didn't believe we would, although a few stayed in touch. But the song always reminds me of our reunions, and "Someday We'll Be Together" is a very real possibility now. We are Doing IT! But As Easter approaches there is additional meaning to this song. Jesus died for our sins first and most important. But he also died to show us that there is life after death. "Someday We'll Be Together Again." All Of Us, those that were killed in Vietnam, those that have died since, and us....... God bless each of you, and His peace be with you. I will see some of you this summer. Much Love, Bill

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Hey Bud, Nice web page. Brought back alot of old memories. In the one labeled "unknown 1a" is a picture of Tim. Don't remember his last name but he worked in the "rear" as a clerk. He done typing and things like that. Remember when several of us got to come in from the field for the Bob Hope show Chrismas day. Tim got a gallon of whiskey that day from home. He hid it and we walked into the show and all got drunk. That was a day I will never forget. He is the one that typed up my paper work for my 90 day early out. The early out you told me about for going back to college. Things just clicked for me and the next thing I knew it I was a short timer. I got an 89 day early out. I also have some pictures of you, some good and one that will bring back bad memories. Let me know if you want them. The picture labeled 1 in the section of unknown is a guy named Robbie, he carried an M60 in the machine gun squad. I think he was from Minnosota. (spelled wrong) He always hung around with Bill Hyde. I have a couple pictures of him carring the M60 on one of our long marches across the boonies. Any way I got to go for now but was good to go through your web page.

Larry Scheier  

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Leaving

Leaving is a lonely thing, for you are leaving part of yourself.

Parts of your heart remain in the people you meet and

they continue to exist in our memories. A.A. Lane May 31 1971

I wrote this within a couple of months after getting out of Viet Nam. I had returned home to California, packed up after a few days, and headed up to Oregon to finish my masters degree. I would go through the pictures and think about the grunts still in country. Then I put the pictures away for a long time. Now I am sharing them as part of my healing and to help others.

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Taking Responsibility -This is my response to an old friend's letter in which he was feeling very responsible for some things that happened in Viet Nam.

I loved your letter. I cried as I read it and felt your pain. My emotions were right on the surface for me as I write this letter to you. We can look over your shoulders for the rest of your lives for what we think we should have done and what we did do in that time many lifetimes ago. I know that I carry my share of baggage from my little time in hell and it weighs heavier on me more some days than others. I guess the when Uncle Sam threw us into something as foreign as war, we had little to use for wisdom and judgment. I was 24 years old, an old man compared to most, in Viet Nam. I look at my soon to be 24 year son and thank God that he does not have to make the life and death decisions you and I had to make. We did our best and did all that we knew to keep our men alive, but there were guys out there trying to kill us and most times we scared them off or killed them. We had little control or no control of so many of the things that happened around us. I know that I have blocked out many things and some only surface occasionally now. I thank God for little favors. .....

I hope He will grant you peace during your life. I know we will to go to heaven, because both of us have spent time in hell and run through purgatory every day. I hope that you can forgive yourself, as I am to forgiving myself and most of all you.

Thank you for sharing with me. It must have been very painful to put this all down. Each time I talked to someone, the pain got a little less. I hope this helps to ease yours.

 

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TO: The Parents of Lawrence See

In the very near future, Lawrence wil once more be in your midst, dehydrated and demoralized, to take his place again as a human being with the well-known forms of freedom and justiec for all and to engage in life, liberty and the somewhat delayed pursuit of happiness.

In making your joyous preparations to welcome him back into organized society, you might take certain steps to make alowances for the crude environment which has been his lot for the past 12 months. In other words, "Handle with care".

Show no alarm if he insists on carring a weapon to the dinner table, looks around for his steel pot when offered a chair, or wakes up in the middle of the night for guard duty. Keep cool when he pours gravy on his dessert at dinner or mixes peaches with his Seagram's VO.

Pretend not to notice if he eats with his fingers and prefers C-rations to steak. Take it with a smile when he insists on digging up the garden to fill sandbags for the bunker he is building. Be tolerant when he puts his blanket and sheet on the floor to sleep, pay no attention if, when it begins to rain, he pulls off his clothes, grabs a bar of soap and a towel and runs outdoors for a shower.

Simply leave quickly and calmly if by some chance he utters "Di Di" with an irritated look on his face, for it means no less then, "Get the Hell out of here."

Never ask why the Jones boy held a higher rank, and by no means mention the word "extend". Pretend not to notice if, at a restaurant he calls the waitress "No. 1 girl" and uses his hat for an ashtray.

Be especially watchful when he is in the presence of a women, especially a beautiful woman.

Above all, keep in mind that beneath that tanned, rugged exterior, beats a heart of gold (the only thing he has left). Treat him with kindness, tolerance, and an occasional fifth of good liquor, and you will be able to rehabilitate that which once was (but is now a hollow shell of) the happy-go-lucky guy you once knew.

Last, but by no means least, send no more mail to APO, fill the ice box with beer, get the civies out of the mothballs and fill the car with gas, because the "KID" is coming home.

KEITH L. YOUNG

1LT. INFANTRY

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December 31, 1967 - Soui Cut,

The Battle for Fire Support Base Burt.

 

I loved the view from the top of Nui Ba Dinh. You could see the lights from the far away cites. And I loved the challenge of a perfect pinnacle landing in the early evening just as the sun drops below the horizon. It was my last stop; I could go back to Tay Ninh for the New Year's festivities at the club.

It was amazing how fast they could get the cases of Champaign off my helicopter.

Tonight would be great fun, Captain David R. Warden our Group Flight Surgeon, would be on the courier from Cu Chi, and would be staying in the guest quarters, I loved flying with Doc and we had flown a lot of missions together. Doc is the greatest storyteller of all time, and tonight I would get a double dose, staying up late for New Years stand down.

I was the last bird in that night and after fueling and a quick stop at the arming pits for some linked 7.62 for the M-60's, I put my D-model in the revetments, and started the hike to the operations tent, walking right past the mortar watch ships, WO Bill Britt saying something is cooking down at fire support base Burt, and they were on alert. Bill Britt, Frenchie Gibeault, what a team.

I find Doc and we start cooking a steak, out on the grill set up behind the Officer's club. I liked it when the army made an attempt during the holidays.

Almost anything was better than C-rations. The party had started before Doc and I got there and seemed to be in full swing by the time we sat down to eat our steak. WO Jim Conde could get anything and these steaks were proof. I looked up to Jim, a Special Forces type that went to flight school, he could speak the local language and he knew people in low places, if you know what I mean.

The party was a success, we watched a movie, heard and told some great stories (all true of course) and I headed off for bed, wishing the tent had cooled down enough to be able to sleep in. I walked over with Doc to find him a Cot in the tent we kept for visiting crews, and on my way back was stopped by the on duty orderly.

"Mr. Coe find your Doctor friend and get to operations now." I thought, what kind of silly bullshit is being pulled now by one of my more than slightly inebriated flying buddies. So rather than wake up the Doc, I walked over to the Operations tent and a very serious Major Bauman looks up and says "where is your Flight Surgeon?" Well, I started to speak and he cut me off, "get him now, and get back here as fast as you can, your crew has been sent for, hurry."

Doc was still awake, he jumped in his boots and grabbed his gear and out the tent flap in one move. For a huge airborne ranger, Doc moves so well, the word would be graceful, if not applying to 250 pounds of raw muscle and brains. My flying gear is in my tent and we both double time over to it and double time to the operations tent.

Major Bauman looked very unhappy, he was gruff when he was happy, and he looked sinister tonight. "Men I have a bad job for you two tonight. Mr. Coe you are my only sober pilot, and Captain Warden, I have to send you as the Co-pilot, I have no one else to send." I looked at Doc and he smiled at me. I knew he was up to it what ever it was; I think the word is fearless. "The medevac choppers from the 45th are having problems getting in to Fire Support Burt. Our boys need ammo and medevac, I am sending a fire team to cover you in and out, and it looks bad up there."

Major Bauman's Jeep took us to the revetment and my crew had the bird untied and ready to rock and roll, we were airborne in minutes. First stopping by the ammo bunkers and taking a full load of ordnance. As my heavy helicopter staggered for some altitude, I noticed just how black it could be in Vietnam, and started to fly on my instruments, tuning my radios to the Ground FM, the FAC on VHF and my company UHF. "Blackhawk 54 inbound with a load of ordnance, where do you want it, over." No response. We must be too far out for them to hear us, and I pulled a little more pitch and grabbed some more altitude to help with the radio.

I was busy flying, I could hear the gun ships on Victor and I could hear fast movers on Uniform, no grunts on Fox Mike. Doc keys his mike, "good night, look at the fire fight going on out there." In the inky darkness was the fountain of horror, a full fledged fire fight, tracers coming in, tracers going out, explosions, fire, it looked like a real mess down there. Bullets ricocheting at every angle, I knew our mech. men were fighting for their lives down there, and they would be needing our ammo and medevac now. I ask the FAC for the ground frequency and he gave it to me.

"Ground control Blackhawk 54 over." I could hear the din of battle behind a voice on the radio. "Blackhawk 54 we are under heavy attack and are requesting you stand by, say again ordnance on board," "Roger Ground, I have 105 Beehive, fifty cal and a Doctor." After a moment of silence ground comes back on the radio "it is too hot to land now, but we urgently need your load." I don't hear the Rat Pack, so I call the Stinger gun ships, "Stinger lead, Blackhawk 54, over," "Stinger go ahead" "I have 105 beehive and a Doctor on board can you get us in?" "If you want to go in there we will escort you in, what is you location?" "Blackhawk 54 is South East 5 miles out." "Roger Blackhawk come to the south end of Burt, we will pick you up and escort you in, but there is a lot of fire down there so make it a fast approach." We fly south of Burt and I can see the gun ships coming out to get us. I start the 120 Knot approach, at first going past the gun cover, but then as I start to flair they are by my side, mini guns roaring, low level insanity. I can't see a fucking thing with all the smoke and flares competing with the tracers. I see a lone trooper standing with his arms over his head, guiding me in, exposing himself. The bravery of the men on the ground chokes me up. I am guided to a spot with wounded men, Doc is out of his seat on the ground, doing the much-needed triage, so we can take the worst hit out and hope to save them. Men come from the dark and take the Ammo off, the volume of fire in the perimeter is intense, I am taking hits, it will only be a matter of time and this helicopter will never fly again, Doc has his load and is back in the right seat, I call coming out, and look up to see a pair of gun ships covering my ass coming out. We are low level in the dark with a load of men, all severely wounded, Doc says "I had better get busy," and jumps over the console and starts taking care of the men. I fly directly to the 12th Evac pad in Cu Chi. I call "Golden Umpire, Blackhawk 54, inbound with eight wounded about 10 minutes out." The calm voice of Bill Giles on the radio comes back "late night 54, you are our only chopper land on pad one." Nice to hear a familiar voice on the radio. I wondered if he ever slept, he was always there when I needed him. He will expedite the unloading of our wounded. Best Pad Man in Vietnam.

Cu Chi tower clears me direct to the Medevac Pad and I come in hot flaring sideways to clear the tail boom, and I am almost down and on jumps Big Bill Giles and he takes charge. Bill strips off the loaded weapons and explosive devices, gently lifting the men on to stretchers waiting by the open door. Bill does his work like a mad man, but every move is practiced. Bam, Bill hits me on top of my helmet to tell me he is jumping off and I can pull pitch. Total time on the pad maybe two minutes, but probably less.

We lift to a high hover and ask tower for permission to go to the ammo bunkers, and they clear us direct. The ammo lumpers know what is going on and have our load waiting, we watch them put it on in the aircraft, then a quick call to the tower and we are staggering into the air again. We have enough fuel, and I would like to be light going in, to help with the control of the aircraft down low behind the perimeter of Burt.

Doc and I start to hear the radios first, things are bad, looks like one of the gun ships is down, in the dark. Shit. I see the fast movers laying down Napalm, lights things up, kind of pretty, and deadly at the same time. I cannot see Burt yet, but the fire works were spectacular coming from a concentrated spot on the horizon. As we get nearer we call the ground and ask for status, they wave us off, too hot. Fuck, now fuel was a problem. It took a few minutes to find a gun team; they had one down, and were pissed off big time. I think they would have escorted me into hell if I had asked. They called the fire and I made the approach, we turned this one around in seconds, not one mistake, in and out. I called Big Bill and Doc went to work in the back.

Doc and I flew all night, and in the morning we landed by the shot down gunship so Captain David Royal Warden Jr. MS could perform his duties as a flight surgeon and issue a cause of Death for the crew. The men in the gunship had been burned very badly by the fire, I know it was a shock to Doc, his whole demeanor changed. Fight all night and then in the morning perform autopsies on the man who had been covering your ass all night, is a tough one.

Doc and I flew into Burt numerous times, but what we really remember is the aviators we lost, not the men we saved.

Wayne R. "Crash" Coe

Blackhawk 54

187th Assault Helicopter Company 1967-8

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January 1, 1968 I was one of the pilots hauling ammo in and wounded out of Fire Support Base Burt. It was a long night. One thing stands out in my memory bright and clear about that night. Was a Buck Sergeant directing traffic with two hand held flares. As I would come screaming in through the dark and smoke, with gun cover on each side, I could see very little except for the tracers going both ways. He would stand up tall and brave with a flare in each hand and while every God Damn Dink in the fucking world would try and hit him with automatic fire, he would calmly direct me to the nearly invisible pad, drag off the ammo and load the wounded. We were turning it around fast and he never failed to catch my attention coming in fast through the smoke and dark. I could have never gotten on the ground in the seconds required with out him risking his life for every helicopter approach. We were blind with out him.

After the battle I found the LT in charge of the awards and told him of the heroics of the Buck Sergeant on the helipad. Doc Warden wanted to put him in for Bronze Star and we wanted to thank him for the great job he had done at bringing us in. No one could seem to find him, and my Peter Pilot and I went back to Tay Ninh. I wanted to thank him then, but I am going to get a chance to thank him now.

Here is part of the letter I received from him.

 

Dear Mr. Coe,

Hello, hope your are well. I just had to write you, hope you don't mind. The major point of this letter is to thank you for your story about Fire Support Base Burt. I just read it in the newsletter of the 22nd Infantry Society. Thanks, good story although it gave me, kind of a weird feeling. The major thing, is THANKS FOR COMING IN. I felt adrenaline, and a sort of Deja Vou, if that is how you spell it. I received the newsletter and an offer to join the 22nd Infantry Society in reply to a request for info in the 25th Infantry Div Assn. FLASHES. I was in the 2/77 FA on that same base, supporting the 22nd, fighting for my life, like them, and I was one of the people on that chopper pad to meet you as you came in. Funny thing, but I remember being choked up and thinking that Crazy Brave Son of a Bitch has Guts! I'll be damned if I'd fly a target that big into this shit!! Your nickname is exactly what I thought was gonna happen to you, and your chopper!

Either in a ball of flames from an RPG, or from not being able to see. I gotta tell you up front, that I was so scared, I went into a "Black Out", and except for brief periods of "Wakefulness," whenever the situation or what I was doing changed, I was on "Autopilot." I guess my mind just ran off and hid somewhere. I do seem to remember, though, there was a hell of a lot of dust and smoke, kinda turning the chopper pad where I was into a sort of weird, orange-ish daylight when my flares were up. All of a sudden, here's this chopper coming out of the dark, with a least part of our survival on it.

Yessss!!! I know what you mean, champagne and ammo come off choppers pretty fast, or at least we tried to be fast. I remember the first chopper I saw. I don't remember how many came in or if there was more than one. I remember straightening up and rubbing my aching back as the last on was taking off, and noticing it was daylight and the shooting had stopped. I Remember waving at the first one I. I vaguely think I remember a brief flash of God, I hope he doesn't squash me, the first one I saw came out of the dark like a bat out of hell and along with the relief, hell is what it skeert out of me. Strange to me, that I should be scared, after I had already given up, tried to make my peace with HIM, just in case. I guess even though you give up, you never really give up. I don't know who else was on that chopper pad, how many of us there were and what units they were from except me and my helper from the 2/77. It was so loud on that chopper pad, I never tried to talk after the first few times, shouting in people's ears and they couldn't hear me, nor me them when they shouted in mine. Besides only my robot was there, the rest of me ran off and hid somewhere. It was for me, just the natural turn of events that I ended up staying there all night. After my Pard and I put our first one on the chopper, actually, as we were lifting him up it was heavy and then all of a sudden got a lot lighter, as the guys on the chopper had grabbed the litter to lend a hand. Thanks guys! I turned around and started to head back to the aid station for another litter, but surprise there were already some there! And I'm probably wrong, but it seemed to me like almost as we finished loading one chopper, there was another one to unload and then load. Seemed like they were coming in almost head to tail. And in between, I was breaking ammo out of boxes, the ones I couldn't break by basically bringing them off the chopper hard, hoping they would break open and be faster to get the ammo out. We were in one hell of a hurry.

Funny how time flies. This December it will be 33 years since Burt, but sometimes it seems yesterday, anyway the parts I remember do. Just in case you may be interested in another perspective from the ground, I'm including my account of it as much as I remember.

Take care of yourself.

Mike Pectol

A Small Picture of Death

written 1/27/83

Over and over the man in black must die in my mind. A small moment in time etched in my consciousness. Anger wells in my stomach at something I felt good about at the time. Over and over, I see the man in black fall. Over and over I block out the feeling of? God, I just don't know. The feeling just gets to me. I'm sorry he lives in my mind to die again and again, it's the pits. I search for answers to questions I can not form coherently.

Emotions, mostly anger. Anger, like the tide, to rise and ebb with time. It rises like a wave to crest and dissipate in a useless charge on the beach. I guess the only good thing is the time between crests is getting farther apart and they are not as high as the last, I think.

I talk and write, but alas, I know as much as the last time. I do know that I feel better when I don't keep the pain inside me. I guess one thing that gets me are the ones who are fascinated by war. About the guns, the places, the planes, the fights and about the other implements of death and destruction. They have never had a comrade's lifeless form carried past, with a small portion of his skull left scattered on the bushes were he was shot. You watched him pass and didn't throw-up, because you are to busy bandaging bullet hole in a friend's arm with a bone sticking out. You keep your medic, friend and yourself low to ground to avoid the shots passing overhead and around you.

I suppose it is not the fact that these are things come from one war, police action or event in a person's life. "I'm not sure what I feel, maybe guilty right now." I was trying to say I did what was expected of me and that what I delivered to myself and my country. Why must we (soldiers) live in purgatory, because everyone else wants to put the war in their past and not talk about the war in Viet Nam. Why? I think I know why I get angry now. At the time I had to do what I had to do, because... It seemed like the appropriate thing to do at the time.

To the others: How did you welcome the vets home? Did you stay behind and go to jail for what you believed or did you turn tail and run or where you fortunate not to get the call from Uncle Sam.

Now I have my family, myself and a lot of people that I care for and that help me through my life by loving me. I think I am starting to love me too. It all helps t make life easier.

SSG Infantry Viet Nam 1970 - 1971 - Arnold A. "Bud" Lane 1/27/83

 

P.S. November 5, 1996 The effects of war carries on to our children's children. I have made a good life and have a great family. I was a lucky one to have the support I needed when I came home. BUT, the moments are still vivid in my mind, as I see the sights, smell the smells, and feel the feelings. Sometimes the thoughts hit you and you just turn away and cry silently.
March 22, 2000 I am getting better, but the feelings are still there.

February, 2003 I have retired from 27 years of teaching.
I am thankful for my 2 fine sons, a great wife and 30+ years of marriage.
Thank God for the angel on my shoulder, my comrades in arms
and a claymore pointed the wrong way.

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Memorial Day message 2003

Today we honor those that have died for our precious bits of freedom we enjoy. 226 years and one million men and women died for this life we are able to lead. They are remembered by family, friends, in old ledgers, on grave markers, names on statues and engraved on walls. They were buried in their home town, in national cemeteries, on the shores of foreign lands, near the battlefield, in the place were they died and some lost forever in the confusion of battle. Ceremonies with color guards, pal bearers, flags and taps being played. Ceremonies with a grieving family and friends. Ceremonies were comrades gathered round a shallow grave marked with a helmet resting on top of a up turned rifle sticking in the ground. Ceremonies were a buddy simply closes the eyes of his just dead friend and hurls himself back into the fight.

Each of us have or will be touched by some act of war. Either through a family member or friend. Take time to stop for a short while and remember the person. If it is possible, take time to give of yourself in honor of your friend or relative. A flag on the porch, a letter to a family member of the fallen, service to a veterans group or many other things that might help the survivors. Survivors are the family and friends that grieve for the KIA's. Survivors of war include the soldiers wounded in body or spirit. Most soldier survivors made it home okay in body, but were forever changed by the experience. Some soldier survivors had their lives changed because of wounds to their body. Some survivor soldiers were trapped inside their own body, fighting battles within themselves.

Memorial Day is a time to remember, a time to honor, a time to give thanks for the sacrifice of all who do service to our country.

Thanks for your time,

Bud Lane
May 26, 2003

A Gold Star mother lost a son or daughter in service to their country.

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